All of our stories arranged by publication date
May 6, 2021
A Record of Wrongs
By Jennifer Duann Fultz

Forgiveness is a central tenet of Christianity, but more often than I would like, I’ve seen forgiveness weaponized against the victim, or used by the perpetrator and bystanders to absolve themselves of responsibility and complicity.

April 29, 2021
Who Will Sweep the Tombs?
A lament for Asian Americans and allies
By Jennifer Y. Tu

Hope cannot be found solely in this world, where cycles of violence repeat themselves, and the idol of a white imperial God-man has brought up killers, not fishers of men. We, as people made in God’s image, are the hope.

April 22, 2021
A Church Primed for Conspiracy
By Michael Chen

This deeply-held belief in the value of individuals, which is not held in a vacuum but rather a value held against the value of institutions and communities, has touched virtually every aspect of our society and indeed, our faith ... As the American church, and as a nation, we overly distrust institutions and overly trust individuals. 

April 15, 2021
A Jab in Worship
Combating the Fear of Anti-Vax Conspiracies
By Grace Lim

I have come to see vaccination as a reverent responsibility and duty to protect myself, my family, and my community. It is a promise to protect the most vulnerable as defined in Scripture — the widow, the orphan, and the poor. Each of these represent a segment of the marginalized in our current world, who might be at greater risk of severe illness and death from COVID-19 and other diseases. 

March 11, 2021
The Parable of the Sower, the Other Parable of the Sower, and the Oakland Peace Center
By Sandhya Jha

The future doesn’t look great. But it’s also a little utopian: people rally together to create a different way of being community. They grow food, they build shelter, they make family, they establish ritual and connection to the Divine.

March 9, 2021
Review of "Art and Faith" with Interview of the Author, Makoto Fujimura
By Chandra Crane

"Art and Faith" can be seen as something of a magnum opus, the culmination of many decades of creating paintings and developing his process of “slow art”. Instead of worrying about the completion of a project, slow art values the actual process of making, which Mako does by focusing on each step of the process.

February 25, 2021
A Letter to a Future Descendant
By Myles Markham

Our genealogies write themselves in traditions and often don’t “write” themselves at all. They are told, they are shared, they are lived. You and I come from peoples who pass and share wisdom, lessons, and riddles as a way to survive, heal, and thrive. You come from ways of life that recognize the balance, respect, and mutuality found in all of creation, and this is completely independent of blood percentages or what “parts” you are of this lineage or that lineage. You are whole. Unified. Integrated.

February 18, 2021
The Power is in the Choosing
By Marsha Ungchusri

I wrote this piece to give myself permission to suspend the beliefs I’ve internalized over the years, to freely imagine myself being a mother — something that both terrifies and delights me. What would it look like to raise my child from a place of thriving and abundance compared to the scarcity mindset of my immigrant parents? What would it feel like to tend to my child’s emotional needs as well as their physical needs?

February 11, 2021
In and Out of Hot Water
By Kenji Kuramitsu

My uncle used to tell me stories about the war. How the guys on the other side when they were captured would always say that they were only farmers and teachers, that they were just following orders. “Are your hands any more clean than mine?”

February 8, 2021
Oops, They Did It Again
Some Asian American evangelical “minor feelings” about Saddleback Church
By Justin Tse

There is also now a history of over 16 years of Asian American evangelicals writing on the Internet since 2004 about how white evangelicals have orientalized them in Vacation Bible School curriculum, popular books sold at Christian bookstores, social media posts, church-planting training skits, reception to chapel talks, denunciations of “social justice” and “critical race theory”, anti-Asian racism during the pandemic, U.S.-China relations in light of the January 6 Capitol coup, and the current children’s Sunday school material debacle.

February 4, 2021
By Lauren Dominguez Chan

The practice of utopia creates a sort of muscle memory for our better angels. We run these thoughts over grooves that deepen, neurons that strengthen. If we don’t use this imaginative power, it is ours to lose.

February 4, 2021
Poems on Utopia
By Sagaree Jain

We kick off our "Utopia" series with two poems from Sagaree Jain.

January 14, 2021
Claiming and Reclaiming Our Names
By Jin R. Choi

But why Rebekah? I was asked by a professor when I entered my undergraduate years. Why not Jin? With a simple question, she opened up the possibility that Jin could be just as legitimate of a name as Rebekah; I had never considered it. It was remarkable and sad. I had never considered it, never considered introducing myself by the name I had first been given.

January 13, 2021
Cross, Fire
How My Uncle's Hong Kong Film Collection Fueled My Resistance to Anti-Asian Christian Nationalism
By Lucas Kwong

Caught in the crossfire — or is it the light of a fiery cross? — we Asian American Christians find ourselves exploited multiple times over. Our race is weaponized to stoke hatred; our faith is harnessed to launder the reputation of hatemongers; America’s rival power exploits that hypocrisy to fuel its propaganda. Shall we plot our escape, or shall we cower, waiting for a Messiah who has already given us his spirit?

January 7, 2021
Naming as Way-Finding
By Jordan Aspiras

Whether we like to think of it or not, our names are marks of colonization that we carry with us. Filipinos recognize the relationship of the name to the location. In this case, the Filipino diaspora recognizes the distinction of Spanish influence on their names, while others assume its Spanish origin must mean my ancestry is directly from Spain.

December 31, 2020
Rocks, Trees, and Femininity
A Reflection on Musculinity and Femininity
By Dawn Chow

I write this to the women who feel they do not belong to the believing community as a result of what has happened to them or who they have discovered themselves to be, and to the women who feel as though femininity is a foreign or oppressive word.

December 24, 2020
Fighting for a Name
By Kylie Foo

I learned then that having not just a name for my struggles but having the right person learn this name as well was what could finally act as my shield against these thousands of tenterhooks that were pulling me apart. But it was a difficult process, filled with a hundred hotspots of shame, to accept that my private suspicion about ADHD needed to be verbalized by a white coat and printed into a file in order to access the privilege of medical resources and institutional protection.

December 17, 2020
The Words You Say
By Daniel Chou

In consideration of these and many other ways in which language is wielded, this issue explores the multi-dimensional meanings of naming and being named. There are limits and imaginations to language. There is subjugation and reclamation, clarity and obfuscation, power and possibility to reimagine. These stories name, rename, and unname such experiences.

December 17, 2020
A Different Way Than Out
By Daniel Lam

In truth, my grievance with “coming out” is not with the metaphor itself. It is with language as a whole — the soullessness of its vehicle, its concreteness, its singular instinct to unravel a knot into a linear string of vowels and consonants. Language has disappointed me in its inability to capture my sexuality in every one of its stages, in all of its obscurity and uncertainty.

November 19, 2020
Un/Belonging in the Bay
By Ellen Chen

In God’s kingdom, as with all great gardeners, pruning is caring. Without pruning, my life will become something even I don’t want — an overgrown, prickly bush with no fruit to offer. In this challenging season, I’ve felt pruned and exposed of my misplaced hopes, and I am continuously reminded of a self-important agenda flowing in the undercurrents of my heart, rather than being drawn to relinquishing my own ways in surrender.

November 12, 2020
A Plague On My Family
By Sarah D. Park

Then, a plague on my body, of too much of something no one can name. Mysterious are God’s ways, to send a plague but harden the heart, that we might see some glory.

October 29, 2020
Who is My Neighbor?
The Importance of Practicing Interracial “Fusion Friendships”
By Julius Thomas II and Aizaiah G. Yong

In contemporary U.S. society, polarization and division are rampant. We have forgotten that we are all neighbors to one another, or in other words, that our destiny is inextricably interwoven. Being a neighbor implies we treat one another with dignity and respect, learning to value and cherish our cultural differences.

October 22, 2020
A Fear of Being Forgotten
By Chris Chacko

I have begun to wonder if those who deliver our eulogies are the storytellers of our lives and if our funerals are the official initiation of our legacies — the beginning of the curation of our lives into symbols by others. Death has been an incessant presence in my mind lately.

October 15, 2020
Reopening Schools
By Eunice Ho and Xitlaly Sanchez

The arguments to “re-open” schools and revert to a pre-pandemic world reveal preexisting racist and classist disparities that have only grown starker with distance learning.

October 8, 2020
Befriending Uncertainty, Unfriending Responsibility
By Serena Lee

I’ve had my fair share of Christians over-spiritualizing my emotional and mental pain. Unbeknownst to me, these negative interactions with other Christians shaped my belief that mental health could only be appropriately addressed by mental health professionals.